33 weeks

how far along are you? 33 weeks

maternity clothes? I am starting to miss jeans and have been tempted to get some maternity jeans. But I must stay strong! I do not need them! Only 1.5 months left! And I feel like I'm wearing out my larger maternity and non maternity tops and it makes me sad cuz I want to wear some of the clothes after being pregnant but not have them all worn out and yucky looking.

 

sleep: I have been using a tiny little cute mini belly pillow for on my right side and it totally helps with the right abdomen numbness and pain! I keep waking up earlier than I would like (even on days when I can sleep in) and having to pee (or other things) but the minute I'm out of dreamland, I get super nauseous and HAVE to eat and then I might as well stay up for the day. -____- It's been super annoying. I miss laying in bed and not feeling bloated, stomachache, nausea, etc. Also last night I had a scare at 4:57am, there was a bunch of wet spots on my underwear the size of the palm of my hand or bigger and even on the sheets. I kind of freaked out and thought my water had broken and went to the bathroom and changed my pad and tried to fall back asleep (because after googling "how to know if water has broken" many articles said to lay down for a bit and then see if a bunch more gushes out when you stand) and when I got up 4 hours later, there was no gush and I had no contractions. Luckily I had a Dr.'s appointment today and he checked me and said it had not broken. Phew. But it was a good practice fire drill! I remembered to do TACO! (time, amount, color, odor)

best moments: My baby shower this week! It was so perfect and I got such cute things! Now I have to consolidate and organize so I don't go insane with the amount of things that DONT HAVE A PLACE TO PUT THEM YET (since I'm OCD about organizing and we don't have a freaking clothes dresser yet. Anddddd we're still in our 1 bedroom apartment until AUGUST. It's kind of giving me anxiety that nothing has a place to be put away anymore. Hnnnnnggg) And baby girl has loved dancing. Sometimes I just hold my belly and feel her dance and close my eyes and think about her and I get so excited.

low moments: I kind of had 849574839 muslin swaddles gifted to me. And no bibs or bottles or burp rags or other useful things. So there's that.

missing anything? Just feeling comfortable. I feel like I will appreciate my non pregnant body soo much more after feeling so much discomfort so regularly for so long. And I've had a fairly mild pregnancy compared to others! I hope I'll feel so happy and giddy and energized after I adjust to the baby and my body has time to recover that I can run 5ks again! I don't really like sitting out on stuff, Derek wants to do a half marathon in October, but I will not be able to recoup myself by then.

movement? Dance parties. I swear she shimmies.

food cravings/aversions: Fruity everything. Starbursts. Strawberries. Pineapple. Fruit Snacks. JAMBA JUICE.

 

queasy or sick? Just in the mornings before I eat. Just gotta sit and patiently wait 20 min for that cereal to hit my stomach before I'm a real functioning human being again.

gender: Girl. I want. all. the. clothes. (Matching outfits with me too)

symptoms: Achy abs again (I thought we were already done stretching out my abs! They are gonna be like uninflated balloons after baby comes.) More and more Braxton Hicks (not painful, just makes me have to pee and short of breath. Feels like a hippo is sitting on my chest during it. I am practicing breathing through them though.)

belly in or belly out? Out when I'm full

stretch marks: Still mostly in the clear (please please please stay that way. I'm a stick of greasy butter over here lathering myself up all the time with Bio Oil.)

happy or moody? Happy today, moody yesterday.

looking forward to: General Conference weekend and not traveling anymore. And treating myself with birthday money that I've saved for post-baby clothes.

29 weeks

how far along are you? 29 weeks

maternity clothes? leggins all day errday. And dresses once the weather warms up. Cuz no pants are the best pants. I'm convinced I can make it another two months without having to buy maternity jeans.

 

sleep: not so great. I wake up randomly, not even because I have to pee. Just because my body likes to wake up at 4am. And I can only lay on my left side because belly and back are a no-no and when I switch to left side, I get this weird upper right quadrant pain and its super uncomfortable. So I get all numb and tingly on my left side from laying on it for so long. :(

best moments: Dr. said I had hardly any swelling! Yay! I can still wear my wedding ring and my Converse that are too big for me are still too big (I have a few pairs of shoes that would benefit from my feet growing larger). Also, Derek and I love picturing what she will look like and talking about her and things we want to teach her and do with her. And I actually really like dressing my bump, its my favorite accessory and its the best not having to suck in my gut and getting to flaunt it!

 

low moments: feeling inadequate and unsure of my capabilities as a mother, feeling increasing anxiety and apprehension with each passing day closer, being freaked out about labor, seeing the numbers on the scale continue to climb up and wondering if my body will know how to bounce back, nervousness about all the life change and the "two-ness" that Derek and I have that won't come back. I'm such a planner that I'm trying to picture it and do as much research as I possibly can so I can be as prepared as possible. I do not want any surprises, I will not be one of those moms that says, "I never knew motherhood would be this hard!". I want to picture it and convince myself that it will be the hardest thing ever and the baby will never sleep until she is 18 and wont be out of diapers until then too and Derek won't ever be home until then either and she will hate me and she will never stop crying and I'll have never ending depression and my nipples will continue to crack and bleed forever and they will never heal the rest of my life. So that when it isn't like that (hopefully) I can be pleasantly surprised at how positive it will be.

missing anything? Not having heartburn and a general feeling of discomfort somewhere in my body at all times. And missing food tasting good :(

movement? Fewer kicks and more sliding. I love playing the "what body part am I feeling" game and when I find a foot, pressing it in and feeling it recoil back on my hand.

food cravings/aversions: Captain Crunch ( I had two bowls of it tonight for dinner. So that's how my day is going.) and strawberries.

 

queasy or sick? Not really, just general feeling of malaise in the morning at work before noon. I'm a whole different person after 12:01pm.

gender: Girl. So hard not to buy every single girl outfit even if its $55 for a pants/sweatshirt combo on etsy...

symptoms: Still achy in upper right abdomen and itchy all over. I'm about ready to take a bath in Hydrocortizone cream. And my earring holes keep getting infected and red and itchy. Not sure if that has to do with pregnancy or not.

belly in or belly out? Still half, but more flat and flush

 

stretch marks: The ones on my bosoms come and go, so maybe they aren't stretch marks?

happy or moody? Tired.

looking forward to: Getting goodies that I ordered online in the mail. And childbirth classes starting tomorrow that will hopefully calm my anxieties about that.